Hi guys! I hope you're all having a great day celebrating the amazingness of Jesus! Its been kind of weird for us here in the Goodier household; for 14 years my grandparents celebrated with us, and now they're in Utah. It's a little lonely, but we had a huge feast of corned beef, kruat, potato salad, deviled eggs, and carrot cake for lunch! A little off the beaten trail, but definately delicious :)
I've never been a big fan of Easter. I always get kind of sad when the whole lent, Good Friday thing wraps up. For me, its easier to spend 40 days realizing how sinful I am and how much I don't deserve God, then to spend one day reflecting on how much he's done for me.
Freedom is something so availiable to me, but so hard to accept.
God? Loving me?
Because obviously I'm majorly screwed up. I cheat, lie, become jealous for what other people have, envy others beauty and talent. I'm not loving, I don't care. I say to much, I don't say enough, I hear what God wants me to do and I don't do it.
I definately am not loveable.
It is so easy for me to accept my brokenness.
But is that really why God died for me?
Yes, to fully understand the goodness of God I must understand my own neediness for him. But I don't think that's what he sent his perfect son Jesus into the world to die for. For me to realize how screwed up I am.
He came and died so I would see how LOVEABLE I am.
Broken, undeserving, but untirely and completely loveable.
Hard to accept, but worth the fight.
And THATS worth celebrating :)
I love you all!
kylie
Brennan Manning writes in his book "The Relentless Tenderness of Jesus" that it is our weaknesses that endear us to God, that make us special and unique to Him, because it is in our weakness that we realize our need for God and become fully reliant on Him, our Abba, Daddy. The "desert" is sometimes God's favorite place to be with us because it is then that He has our full attention. Remember even if the storm seems overwhelming: 1. Jesus is IN the boat 2. He's fully in control and 3. you WILL safely reach the other side!! Blessings on your journey! RJ
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